Man. Where do I start..

ITG
Let's see, in the last 2 months, I haven't really done shit. I won my ITG tournament, which consisted of 8 people because people either (1) could Not make it, or (2) don't play expert on ITG. There were some good players there, though. I lost one out of my 7 matches. Maybe a better turnout next time. Since the tournament on 22nd of Feb, I've not been playing as much lately. I really still love ITG, it's just that it's hard to get to the machine and I've got a lot of stuff to take care of, school (which I need to pay more attention to), friends, and family (who I try to visit often).

School and Next Year
I'll be spending another year in Boston. I don't exactly know about my current situation. When I say that I mean I'm not sure if it's what I should be doing. One part of me wants to stick around at BU, close to my family, still with the friends I've met (and my Very close friend since Kindergarten), and just do my thing here. The other part of me feels incomplete. It's like something's missing or some sheit!!!>11.!.1.11uiritenthirteentwentyapples. But seriously, my vision doesn't involve me in Boston. I know that it's where I grew up. My hometown, and favorite place in the world, Southern California.

Which brings me to my next point. I'm more anxious than ever to go to LA this summer. I can't wait until I can just go and see all my friends. My buddies from ITG (man I miss you guys,) my buddies from high school (Joey, from High School), and everyone else who I know from my homeland. It will be great. ITG, partying, going out and staying in to be lazy. And holy shit. Fucking Fatburger + In n Out for breakfast, lunch, dinner, and late-nite snack. Any in-betweens too. Ahhh I can't wait. In the meantime I'll be doing nothing. Trying to get financial aid for school next year, settling my residence (off-campus with my since-Kinder-buddy), writing screenplays for films that I'll be making, playing basketball/working out/ITG in free time. Going home and chillin with the family. Playing Lot's of Poker (like, every day.)

Poker is actually really fun for me. Besides the part that I've lost some money online, I've made a lot of it back in live games. I play with friend on Thursdays, cousins/family on weekend, and online like all the time. I really like poker a lot, almost enough to consider it my back-back-up career haha. If I'm as good as I think I am live, it could work for me. Definitely not a priority though.

Oh, and I suck at school. I need to start improving my grades, and stop procrastinating. I barely read, even though I should, and shit just isn't right with me. to be honest, I Failed my rhetoric midterm (although a good number of others did too) because I didn't read something. I'm pretty pissed at myself for this stuff. I need to straighten out, regardless of how hard it may be...and regardless of the fact that I don't enjoy these classes (when I can choose, It'll be more enjoyable).

Hey, I'm gonna learn to speak Japanese. It will be awesome.
Not much else to say, so I'll leave it at that.
Much love peeps, I'll be in Socal late June.

is on sunday. I like football, and sports are pretty fucking awesome.

I've been going to the gym lately to play basketball, and I can actually get Soooo close to dunking. My hand gets above the rim, but the basketballs they have are worn and the grip sucks. Although this is no excuse, I am so incredibly close. I should be able to dunk in the next week. My shot is nice too, and my handling is just above average. I'll work on that though.

So they got an ITG2 upgrade right near my school, which is funny. No more traveling 1h 15m to get to a dedicab (although that's actually worth it from time to time, considering I pay nothing). Either way, ITG is still fun to me...and I haven't been doing bad at all. the Tournament is in 3 weeks, and I have a shot at winning if i don't fuck up.

Fuuuuuuuck. Still a few months to go before I can visit the homeland & the homies. Time will fly until then...I hope.

Current Mood: indifferent

So it's like 9am and I have an appointment with an allergist. How gay. especially since I've never had any allergies and my parents have never either. Ahh well.

so i played itg again yesterday and passed vertex alpha. It was pretty tiring haha.

besides that, i have classes next wednesday, and my schedule this semester is way harder.

It has been about 6 months now since I was last in LA, or saw any of my socal friends. Hopefully these next 6 months will go by fast, and I can fly over there and see people.

i gotta go. kay buy nig

hello. I played ITG today. I got 2 scores, the rest is history...
96 hotn
98 tell
and I didn't have my usb. GAY. oh well

I'm pretty tired, and I've been learning to use my new animation software to make a cartoon cause I thought it would be cool and funny. I also wrote a script for a movie I'm gonna film and it looks pretty sweet.

My brother Justin (22) decided he didn't like the foresty NH enough to stay, even though his family is here. He's gonna be moving back to our hometown in LA. I've considered going back too, but If I did it would probably not be for another year to year and a half. I can't really explain how much I miss it...I just do.

In other news, I'm gonna go watch a movie and sleep. Also, WHY DOES IT GET DARK AT LIKE 3:50/4:00pm IN NEW ENGLAND? IT'S SO GAY.

11:42 So, like everyone else in college at the moment, I have finals. Yeah. And they suck. At least the first one will. So earlier this week I hoped to spend all my time studying, and boy did that not happen. I actually found myself working solely on a huge-ass final paper for rhetoric (at least i have no final for that class). It ended up being 22 pages, a new record for me. There was a shitload to do, but I'm pretty satisfied with what I came up with.

What has me mostly worried at the moment is what I should be studying for right now. The humanities can be a difficult subject, especially when you don't have any vested interest in the subject matter what-so-ever, and your teacher is a complete douche because of how hard her tests are. Also, her last name is Boots. AAaahhahahahahahahahahahaha. yeah. Hahaha. Fucking sneakers.

So I'll get to studying after I write, cause I need to talk about ITG (yeahh)

I'm hosting a tournament in february, and since I know there will be at least a good handful of people going, it should be awesome. I haven't had much for scores lately, cause of school. I plan to play a lot this winter break, and maybe I'll be able to up my scores. Actually, I've been looking to go to double-star Tell and energizer, and get some quads. Who knows what'll happen... I have my good months and my bad months. Let me recap.
September - Decent. 87 determinator, 93 pandemonium, These aren't bad for me, so I'm pretty happy
October - Great. improved tell from 97 to 97.3, got a bunch of new tristars,
November - Excellent. 99.54 vertex, Fucking 2 first quads on flying high and birdie, almost starred Summer, 97 energizer, and just under 95 on euphoria and bloodrush. Also flagged bumble bee, which i can't seem to quad.

Seems like I haven't done too bad, but after the 24th of november, I've started to focus on school shit, and even when I go to the arcade I barely get new shit. If i do, it's not even that great. Hopefully I can have more of these early-mid november-type improvements in the near future.

Also, I really miss socal, and It's still hard for me to grasp, especially since It'll be this way for 3 1/2 more years. Even then, who knows what's gonna happen. I mean, I plan to move back after college, but my family is here now, and i'm not sure what I'll want to do in the future. I hate this shit.

Back to the tired, nearly depressed, studying-state that I was in.

Current Location: Dorm, studying
Current Mood: frustrated

 I hate 12+ Page English Papers. they SUCK.

Fucking finals.

HI

I don't know what to do these days. Things seem to be working out nicely, actually. Hmm, where to start...

I guess I'll start with ITG cause it's fun. Basically I've slowly been getting new scores, and things seem to be going well. I met a few new New England players (haha) who are actually cool. There's a guy who plays no bar and is really good... his name is Matt (aka Mad Matt). He's got like almost the same scores as me, but without the bar. 80 Dokudenpa (that was my first sightread pass after 5k calories that day haha), 93 Euphoria, 87 determinator, and a 30% fail on OML. Anyways, it seems that the owners of the machine I play on are going to let us hack it. Sigma is coming down (today) to hack it, and I'll be settling a date and structure with the management for an ITG tournament that I'm hosting in February. Also, I've convinced Boston University to purchase a dancing arcade cabinet :] Basically I convinced them that it would be awesome, so they said it would be cool. They're waiting on me getting numbers/contact info of sellers, so I'm basically just gonna go find someone willing to sell us an in-good-shape ITG2 Dedicab. Hopefully that works out. If it doesn't, I'm not completely worried. I met a friend this year who's working for a law firm (and she's a freshman, what the fuck haha) and she has a lot of cash saved up. Basically we're pretty good friends, and she's gonna help me buy my own dedicab (I offered to pay her back with interest) along with my own money, and my parent's money. I've been talking about it for a while, and I really want it to happen. It looks like it will, I'm just not sure exactly when it would.

It seems like there's a lot of stuff nowadays that could go wrong or fail, or they could just be quaded. Ahahaha.

So I fucking hate my roommate, Alex. He's always bringing in people and they're so fucking loud and shit. God it pisses me off. It's like 2:30 and they seem like they're SLIGHTLY trying to pay attention to my attempt to sleep. Then people leave and he starts talking to our other roommate (triple) who actually isn't really loud or anything. I'm really considering roommate changing if it isn't too late, cause I just don't want to handle this fag. I can't wait for Christmas so I can be in my own fucking room without that retard fuck. FUUUCK

On a sadder note, I don't know what to do about socal. I miss everyone over there so much, but I don't know if I can make it. It would be hard for me deciding where to stay and shit. Basically we still have our house there, but it's empty, and I would be about 100+ miles away from my good friends in San Diego. But then, I also have my friends from school where my house is, and then there's the rest of LA and Orange County areas that I have friends in. As much as I fucking miss and love my friends in socal, I just don't know what to do.. It might be easier to just go next summer for the US Open and when I have more time to spend there, and it doesn't have to be focused Around holidays. I love you guys, see you next summer? =)

Tags: bunch of random stuff.. good and bad
Current Location: Boston
Current Mood: Mixed
Current Music: Soothing

 And I, as always, have an incredible amount of things I think about. I don't even know where to begin.

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I don't even know where to begin.

My mind is _________. I do not know what to call my mind. It seems like my mind develops millions of ideas at once that are so in-depth or different from reality. I don't know what the deal is, but I consider so many different things. You might call it imagination, but I think it's more than that. I think about everything that is placed in front of me. Maybe sometimes I don't really think so much of what I'm doing because I just don't care. But the other times, my mind will invent a perspective of its own. I see myself typing right now, and at the same time I see myself when I'm dead looking down at myself typing when I'm dead. Then to surface this situation, my mind considers that this whole scenario isn't completely likely, that when I'm dead, instead I'll be living seperately from the past. It's like all my thoughts build on each other. It's unexplainable. I can't explain it. Maybe I can and It's not as in-depth as I think, but then again it is because I think beyond either yes or no it's not in-depth or it is, instead that it may or may not be. I don't even know if that last sentence made sense, and I don't care. As I typed this last sentence and I was thinking it, my brain also thought about what I was thinking, that the sentence might have made sense or not. I think extensively. It's a tree with branches building off of each other, except that they don't stop. The branches of thought don't stop building, and I seem to be semi-aware of this, at least...but I don't completely understand it...

What you read in the last paragraph is just a sample. I don't know what you would call that. I am not crazy. Some people would say "You're mind is lost and doesn't focus or know what it's thinking about." No it's not, and I know what I think about, and I think a lot...but I'm not sure why. So many other people in the world, and every person I have seen doesn't think as deeply as I do, or so it would seem on the outside. Is this a bad thing? What's the deal with my wierd thought process..? what the fuck is wrong with me? Is there anything wrong with me? I don't think so. I think it could be a gift, or it might not be. I don't think it's bad.

So I have these little things that bother me in life, and I'm not sure how to handle them. Let me start with an example. Someone is walking in front of me. They are walking slow, and are first to the door. They open it slowly, and then stop, deciding they want to pull out their cell phone. My problem started at the slow walking. I feel like people in the world have a wide range of stupidity. These minor things are the ones that affect me as annoyances. I FUCKING HATE THEM. What do I do when someone straggles in front of me, oblivious of my presence? If something wasn't holding me back I'd say, "Get the FUCK out of my way." Again it's my irregular thought process. I'm focused on how much I don't like what this person is doing that I don't think about why I don't say that. I just know I shouldn't because she's not worth it, or it's not worth me making out myself to be an asshole, or whatever. I don't know why people suck in this world, but some people do. It's like when you say, "Hey I'm gonna get a cheeseburger." Someone says back, "You're a fucking idiot because there's a person in line." I feel so lost and at a loss for words because of how senseless this person is. The obvious thing to say is "What the hell...why does that person waiting in line have to do with my cheeseburger desire?" My mind doesn't want to say this because it thinks on a different level. The obvious thing isn't good enough. I don't know what to do so I generate anger inside myself. I know it's not healthy to have anger inside, but it's there and I can't do anything else. What do I do? My mind doesn't stand for anything simple.

This Livejournal is real. I am not crazy, but I don't know what my deal is. I don't know if anyone will understand what happens in my brain, including myself. I think this goes along the lines of the first paragraph. Maybe it's all bullshit and my mind has limits, and maybe it doesn't. I don't think it does but I don't know enough to be able to tell.

Aside from my self-analyzed psychology, things are mediocre at best. I've decided college so far isn't that great. Maybe I just haven't gotten the best of it yet, or maybe my luck sucks. I don't like my roommates. Alex seems to be an attention-whore and subconsciously considers himself the alpha-male. Aside from this he CAN BE funny, not always... Elliott (yes i'm in a triple) is a little more boring than Alex. He knows jokes, but his sense of humor is limited/small.. He seems to give good advice, but gets mad even at the smallest little joke. I shook his hand once and held it longer than usual just to be funny. Not even, just to perform one of those acts that seems to allow a slight chuckle. He takes it personal and yells with a semi-loud voice. what the fuck is he thinking? I don't know what your deal is but it was the smallest, stupidest joke that shouldn't even matter. EIther way he doesn't seem to have problems, but it's just annoying. I don't like my roommates, and I'd much rather be with my family. They know good jokes and love enjoying a nice time. I'd also rather be with the itg peeps from socal, or at least some of the one's who know I exist.

I sit here writing a livejournal entry, and I don't know what to do. I have a paper for my humanities due tues. I fucking HATE THAT BITCH TEACHER. She's the biggest asshole, cause her method of good teaching is challenging beyond the point of improving us. "Essay due friday, 5 pages." Friday rolls around, "Ok everyon have your essays? Good. Does everyone have the study guide finished which we usually do in class, and I never make you do at home...especially this time since there's an essay? Aww.... no points for you noobs."
This is one of those people that walk slowly in front of me and I don't know what to say, probably a worse variation of one of those people.

As a sidenote. There are a lot of people I love from socal. Blake, Pike, Ian, Brian from ITG, there's more i'm sure out of the itg people. I just don't want to think too hard right now. There's my buddies from crespi (even though i hate that school with a passion), with whom i had good times. I also miss pretty much everything about LA, including the fact that it is the city that holds my career success with what I want to do, and I'm stuck in boston now with a mediocre agency that doesn't get breakdowns or major jobs, ever...

I've typed a shitload, so I'm gonna stop now. I doubt many people will read this, but I don't care. I want to write shit that I'm thinking of. message me on aim if you want to talk. Or text me. I don't care. all i can hope for is a wealthy future as an accomplished actor. I've got the gift to be funny, or serious. I can do whatever it takes. If all goes well for my life, I'll make sure other people benefit from my well-doing. This i can say from my heart. this isn't to say i wouldn't enjoy a good amount of wealth/money ^_^ but that a lot of my money would go toward family and even friends, and especially those who i don't know, but who i know enough to say they need help in life.

I'll probably post again soon, minus the length.

Hi. This is my Livejournal. you will never hear me use the two letters commonly used as an abbreviation for this website because there's a fucking prick who went by those two letters in my high school. For the record, my high school wasn't all that great...Lot's of douchebags. Let's not get into that, that post will be for another day when i feel like it.

Back to things that are Much more important... I got a quad on Flying High. No one seems to care. 6-7+ months ago, people asked me randomly how i've progressed and were actually encouraging. I get a quad now, and only a couple people even say anything. Alright then... I post it on itgfreak. One person says "gj nigger". Oh ok, that's what I like to hear. As if it isn't an offensive word. It was pretty unneccesary (especially cause we haven't really joked about it before), and I know people don't say that shit in real life. I don't let it bother me, although you have to realize what it means. No one says, "khinigger" do they?  Whatever, I won't care about it anymore... Also, I might just keep my accomplishments to myself or the select few who actually give a shit. Otherwise, I've decided to stop posting and visiting  that site as much as I have been (as if I have been a whole lot anyway) ...cause everyone just seems to want to mainly argue or be fucking assholes.

I don't really know what's going on with the socal itg community...There seems to be an all-time high amount of drama, which isn't healthy. People seem to be arguing and bashing each other so much. If it were a bunch of me's, shit would be friendly and funny (yeah I just said me's and I don't give a shit). Not only that, but as a sidenote I'm not sure everyone will follow-through with the payment for US Open 08. I know I will, but it sucks knowing that their might be some kind of flaw with what people promised. Hopefully it works out...

This livejournal stuff is alright..